Oh, I don't know

I have passed out before, and found myself underneath a large oak dining table, bruised, a little confused, and sore. Readers, you have been secretly wondering this about me for years, I know. The real question is why, and the answer -- I overreacted.

The aforementioned incident was the first and only time I've ever brought myself into a state of hyperventilation, but by no stretch of the imagination the only time overreaction has seized me. "But you're such a level headed and practical person!!", I can hear you breath in disbelief to your computer screen (i'm ignoring the fact that you are actually snickering right now).

Now, my overreaction is not a crippling disorder that rules all areas of my life, don't get me wrong, but there have been times that I have sincerely wished to be more like...oh, someone who always makes quick and sound decsions (I can't think of a good celebrity example -- email me if you're smarter and less tired than me, so I can edit this rambling section out) because there are times it decides to reveal itself in carpet burn and a broken toe, or "I think I'm moving to Germany", "I think I'm moving to Kenya", "I think I'm moving to Indonesia", "I think I'm moving to Maryland"... (I think you get the point).

Maybe overreaction isn't always the right word. Sometimes its a sheer committment phobia. This is something that I've typed about before, so I won't subject you to the particulars again. All of this dribble is really to say that I overreacted to circumstances related to the hurricane lately that really brought to light how these two issues really mingle together more than I realize.

I started looking in a job on higher ground -- particularly in Memphis -- because I was sure that my job and/or home was gone, and Memphis was just the place to start a new adventure. Obviously, I overreacted a bit, and was brought to terms with the fact that saying I'm going to commit to my job in Picayune is not the point -- it's actually staying where I promised to. I think I might be learning how to understand this whole committment thing just a little bit better finally.

Cheers,
Holly